Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Carpe Diem

I couldn't wait to get up this morning.  I was unable to sleep last night with a lot on my mind.  This happens once in a while but I don't think it's always a bad thing.  The peace and silent dark help me to center and clearly align my thoughts without distraction.  The way I look at it there are meaningful decisions ahead and I need the pause to consider my direction and affirm my choices.

A prominent echo last night was something a friend told me once...'Stay in the box & only worry about what you can control.'  I chewed on this for a long time because while I am many things, no one would ever accuse me of being an 'in the box' guy.  So my friends' statement is a big pill to swallow, especially for people driven by intent, force and passion.  But after a while the essence in these words started to sink in for me.  It isn't so much about expanding your control in order to worry less (which is a tendency), it's about truly letting go of things you have absolutely no control over.  Having said that I figure there's a caveat around new situations and the principle of relativity and the passing of time.  Meaning if you've never experienced it, sometimes it takes taking a chance to know how things will play out.

Bike racing is a teacher of such things.  The end result of your race is often determined by one's skill in letting go of moves that aren't worth your effort to contain but also every once in a while the highest success happens when you take a chance.  Both of these require a great focus and determination.  I am grateful to cycling for showing me so many things. In it's imagery I was able to unfold the power in my friends words. This sport has not built my character but it continues to reveal it.

-Peace & RS

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